I have now. I’ve lost control of the past. I can only influence the future. I changed my life’s course 11 months ago when I came out. I am still John Dobbs observing a continuous life, but I have disrupted its flow. I have embraced that I love men in the way I thought I [...]
I’m grateful that last September I came out. I feel freedom like never before. I have no regrets. At times I wish I had done so sooner, but I am also grateful for much good that has happened by waiting. I have a stellar wife, a true lover to me, though not based on sexual [...]
Today I am beginning a personal journal that will be visible to anyone. I will expose events and thoughts of daily living. Anyone can read how I see the world, how I think, and how I am sometimes mistaken. I will let my vulnerability show–at least some of it. I am 60 years old. I [...]
“Believing that he can betray, he believes that everything can betray him.” – A Course in Miracles The Law of Reciprocity of Belief What you believe you can do, you simultaneously believe others could do. What you believe you do, you simultaneously believe others do. What you believe about yourself, you simultaneously believe about others. [...]
I feel lack when I give away importance to another whom I think has something I don’t. Truthfully, I require nothing, nor can I keep anything. All is passing away except that which cannot. Outsourcing desirableness frustrates. Being content with my own and “other” destroys Importance, disrupting its pendulum. Charge is missing, and all maintains equilibrium.
The story of Adam and Eve shows us two states. One before they ate from the tree of knowledge of good and evil and another after. In the later state, Adam and Eve: Knew they were naked. Made themselves fig leaf loincloths. Hid themselves from the presence of I Am. Were afraid because of their [...]
Sometimes we hold in our mind pictures of failure and the dire consequences of our bad behavior. It’s kind of like wearing a frown on our face. It’s a sign that we’re feeling bad and we project that feeling, even into ourselves. It’s a self-fulfilling prophecy. We can put on a pretend smile. Faking it [...]
We don’t realize how fortunate we are to have at least a degree of free will. It’s a necessary ingredient for love. If we were robots, pre-programmed to do as our maker intended, we could be programmed to perfectly follow The Ten Commandments, for example. We couldn’t do otherwise, but that’s not love. Love requires [...]
Love is patient… — 1 Corinthians 13:4a (NIV) What is love? More specifically, what is agape love? The New Testament’s renowned love chapter, 1 Corinthians 13, at its core (verses 4-7) gives agape love’s attributes. Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does [...]
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always [...]
