I have now. I’ve lost control of the past. I can only influence the future.
I changed my life’s course 11 months ago when I came out. I am still John Dobbs observing a continuous life, but I have disrupted its flow. I have embraced that I love men in the way I thought I was supposed to love women. I have admitted that I have been trying to thrive out of phase with my deep wishes and desires. I was living a divided life–one for show and another, in secret, for myself. Now I have merged these two. I am walking a single path where public visibility and private longing are the same. I am ecstatic that I did not wait any longer 11 months ago.
